Too many choices

 

 

First week was good...the second week started out with too many choices for me...should I sit, scan, walk, drink tea, brush my teeth meditation...I spent the first few days of the week doing what I do--planning which day I was going to do which...I became very frustrated because I had not "accomplished" anything.  I couldn't plan my walk--it's too late or if I open the door this early in the a.m. the alarm beep will go off and wake my kids.  I kept going back to just sitting. And then it hit me, I was actually going and "just sitting!" Yippeee.  Yesterday, I  went back and re-read Sharon's chapter to make sure I was getting the most out of it.  I spent my day trying to be mindful in everyday actions.  What a challenge! I raced out of bed to take to my son to a basketball game early in the morning. I was late but took a moment to feel my feet on the ground.  Took a moment to feel the cold water splashing as I washed my face.  Took a moment to feel the bitter cold as I opened the door.  It was about an hour drive and my son fell back to sleep in the car.  I listened to his breath for quite sometime--that sweet breath--he is no longer a little boy but that sweet breath. What a way to start my day. Jackie

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Having that many choices can

Having that many choices can indeed be frustrating, but it is just meant to paint a picture of a bigger way to see meditation. At essence it is all about beginning again. I used to see my own tendency, if I was frustrated while stuck in traffic or completely mindless in some activity, to think, "Oh no, I blew it. I have to sit an extra half hour tonight to regroup, to come back to myself and what I value." Gradually I saw that I needn't postpone that return, that realignment...I could do it right there, sitting in the car, drinking a cup of tea, washing dishes. I felt like my world opened up.

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