I was easing into these 28 days pretty darn good......sitting every day, the mindfulness bell that I so enjoy - beginning and ending my sit with the lovely sound. Staying with my breath, noticing my thoughts, letting go, gently back to the breath.....just lovely. Feeling fairly grounded...things are good. Last night attended a house concert and it was fabulous. Even managed to get in some pretty fantastic hugs! YEA!! And who knew - I remembered to turn up the sound at work, my little mindfulness bell, mini-meditations....three breaths....I am here. It's all good.
Then today hit. Overtired and way too much work to do and walk into problems. Six different things need to be done and constantly interrupted from that. I am caught. You would think I have never meditated a day in my life. I am frustrated, tense and probably wouldn't hear that bell if you hit me with it. Another problem walks in and I don't feel grounded at all. Finally...it creeps in...I am sitting there staring at these papers trying to figure out what happened...and its there.... just breathe...and I take a moment...stay with my breath. I can feel my body start to relax...some calm.....now....I can deal with the problem. I am here. Just breathe. This moment, deal with this moment, this issue...not what I have to do after this - just this, not think about what led to this....just what I have - right here - right now.
Breathing and the Art of Starting Over. Every moment is an opportunity to start again. Not wanting it to be different, accepting whatever comes up.
I think I will just sit with things for a bit.