"it's a thought; it's not who I really am." (p 126)
This rings so true to me. I consider myself to be a person with a lot of strong emotions.
Now that I typed that I see that it's a little problematic. I just defined myself by what I perceive to be an emotional nature. I think a more skillful way to say that is...
Strong emotions carry me away sometimes. Or I allow strong emotions to carry me away sometimes. But in any case, I am led astray by strong feelings, usually fear, excitement, anger, rage. They can take over for days. I believe very strongly that this emotional mediation practice is necessary for me right now.
That said, I feel a little numb sitting there. Maybe I was expecting to have what Sharon called the operatic emotions when all I am having is a little twinge of something here or there. Much less dramatic, but I think now that I've realized that, I don't have to feel like I'm secretly a robot.
In gratitude.
Katie
Comments
Well put
Thank you for phrasing your observations about strong emotions being present in your life as you did here, without blaming yourself, or the universe. I think that observing those emotions is the most challenging type of meditation I've tried doing, and your words are helpful.