I found the meditation this week, particularly when employing the RAIN (recognition, acceptance, investigation, and non-identification) technique with my emotions, really enlightening. One evening, particularly stressed, I sat down on my bed and listened to Sharon's reassuring voice. I tried to quiet down and identify what my feelings were and where, in my body, I was feeling them.
I realized that I was feeling determined and stealth right in my belly. And then I realized something else: this is exactly the feeling that I had as a teenager right before I would take the basketball court of the lacrosse field. It turns out that when I'm really facing an overwhelming challenge, I go into this athletic mode in my body where I sort of turn down the volume on life, get really focused inward, put my head down, and determine to "win the game."
It was really fun to realize that the emotional and intellectual training I got from playing sports so long ago is still "at play" in my life. And further, that I can trust myself to do this relatively healthy adaptation to get through stressful times. I recognize that problems can arise if I don't let myself settle back into a more relaxed, wider range of emotions at some point (I crash, get sick etc.), but for really trying moments, it's a cool thing to be able to trust in myself.